2014..

As 2014 nears an end, I thought this was a great time to say Thanks to this year. 2014 has been probably the most eventful year of my life, for so many reasons, that I can’t even count.

The major reason for this is a person, one person who has been my best friend, who has listened to all the stupid things I have, a person who has given me all the time I wanted; without ever complaining even for one second. How I am related to that person is insignificant, the only thing that matters is that that person has been there on the darkest nights and throughout the darkest year of my life. For this, and for all the innumerable “jokes” , I am grateful. Because of them , this year has been great!

2014 marked my moving back home after spending almost 5 years in the hostel. Mom’s love; my cute little , irritating yet adorable siblings , Grandma’s Love and so much more; Thank You 2014 for this.

The year was a year of travel for me, I journeyed from Trivandrum to Delhi to Tripura to Mizoram to Assam and finally back home. I love to travel, Thank you 2014, for fulfilling this wish of infinite travel.

I had the best birthday this year with a group of friends after such a long time , and the huge element of surprise left me (well) teary eyed, YES.

This year I finally got the strength to quit the mainstream line and go after something I actually want in life. I quit my job to take exams, because, I want to study before I am ready to put my life in the 9 to 5 shoes. Thanks 2014 for bestowing me with this strength.

And last but most important, Thanks a lot 2014 for teaching me how to stand my ground despite number of failures. This year taught me how to move on when all your dreams get shattered and you are left with nothing but frustration and loneliness.  Thank you 2014 for teaching me how to deal with failures and how to get up and face yourself the next morning.

All in all, 2014 has been the most eventful yet sinfully boring year of my life. Confused???

Well, stay tuned for more folks..

Signing Off

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To a week of Success filled with failure..

So, I just watched this incredible movie ‘Bhag Milkha Bhag’ finally after some 2 or 3 weeks of its release , anyhow it was awesome and worth the wait. Just as it was intermission time and I was supposed to be  having my favourite movie snack (Nachos btw), a phone call rendered me back to reality, the other result (the one I mentioned in the previous post) was put up at around 8.30 pm on 2 August 2013, and the day for the most part of which I had been happy, was turned into a day I shall never forget, and as you might have guessed from all the bakwaas above, I didn’t make it.

I am not disheartened or angry rather this time I feel nothing, it all goes like a completely numb feeling inside, although this reminds me of a time in January, when the same kind of feeling had surfaced as well. Just the fact that this exam took whatever I had inside me, I put my graduation degree at stake by not really studying for the final exams, I never attended my college conti party or the scribbling day or get to spend the last few days with my friends in college, honestly speaking, until this very moment all those things didn’t seem to be of that much importance, for I was doing something, something I wanted to after a long very long time.

But, life isn’t as straight as it seems rather its full of ‘Hair-pin bends’… Now, just as I was to turn a new leaf in an absolutely new month, God came to remind that only his wishes prevail in this world. Graduated college yet failed thrice this year, not my year maybe..

Its time …. !!

Running away from life , from people, from places are pretty much the worst things we can do to us.. Its a sign of cowardice to have an escapist tendency in difficult situations.. This tendency of running away hurts us only and not anyone else.. It makes us live in a make believe world where everything is great, everybody is good and everything is ideal and the moment we are presented with difficult situations, we just prefer to ignore them , to escape from them, to  simply just forget that anything bad too can happen in this world..

I have been running away from so many things for such a long time and the result was that i ‘deactivated’ the one thing that had me connected to the rest of the world, today somebody said something which made me realize that I have become an escapist of sorts from things from people when things go wrong. I have just somehow managed to snap all ties with a person, a really good friend.. I have managed to isolate myself to this tiny corner of this tiny room of this place somewhere adjacent to a really fun place yet have managed to stay miles away from it. I have managed to do all that in just a matter of few weeks. I have managed to ruin anything and everything I loved and possessed. 

And all the above was the result of a failure, a small failure which demotivated me big time, it just made me want to leave everything and everyone and just go.. Just leave and go to maybe a place far far away.. I tried saying these things so many times but somehow never found anyone who was even remotely interested in helping me, there was nobody who supported me during that time.. All my friends for whom I have lived all my life simply just walked away.. They just shrug their shoulders and said there is nothing we can do about it, You’ll have to deal with it on your own dear. This consolation my friends wasn’t good enough. 

 

Anyways, after having gone miles away to a distant place in my heart from all the happenings , failures and people mentioned above, Now, today is the time when I stand up for myself again. Today is the time when I finally connect with the world but this time it is going to be a selective connection. Today, I start a new life. Today i turn a new leaf and today I let go. Its been long and now finally ITS TIME..!!!

“Signing On”

Have a great one Friends..!!